I'm a firm believer that if I have nothing to say, I will not say anything at all. Hey guys! Um...to all of those still "watching" me, is that what they still call it? I just wanted to say thanks. I have a little downtime so I thought I'd update you. I'm in school and for the most part, things aren't always looking so bright for me as they do for other people or as bright as they could. For one thing, the classes here are way hard and I never thought living on my own would be, well, to put it bluntly, so lonely and time-degrading. I feel as if I have no sense of time in college, not in the sense that I'm wasting my time, at least I don't feel as if I am. It's in the sense that whenever I am doing something productive, let's say homework, I feel as if I'm not using my time to my greatest advantage or potential. Sometimes I feel as if I don't belong here. There are plenty of other people who would LOVE to be in school right now, but me, I feel as if I'm lost in a world where I don't belong and where I don't fit in.

I'm not really cool with the people on my floor, for the most part I'm viewing them as boys that never really graduated from high school. They're kinda immature and trying to be something they aren't...but for the most part, isn't that nearly everyone in school? Hell, life? My roomate on the other hand is one socially awkward son of a bitch. I yearn for the day where I am not obliged to live with another. He's super Christian, very awkward, studies all the time (I mean, I'm a nerd but not that nerdy) and he's annoying. I blame part of this on my only-child upbringing and I'm sure he finds flaws in me, but hey...you win some, you lose some.

I'm still writing. I'm a writer. I just haven't had the urge to write anything as of yet. Remember, I'm a strong believer in the fact that I won't say anything unless I have to and I haven't really had the urge to speak. Rather, the inspiration. Well all these bad things have been happening to me, I don't think they are that potent enough for me to write about, as melodramatic as that sounds! But when I do write, rest assured, you'll get a good scoop and it'll come pouring out. The well just needs to run dry sometimes, and then it'll replenish itself.

I wanted to go to the harp factory today and I had to practice Bach, which I didn't really practice and I'm not that great at lol. Yeah, so I was just updating you guys. I miss all those that you know, really read my stuff. And thanks for keeping track of me thus far. The writings will come when they come. I really wanna start combining more of my literature and music together, it'll happen. So yeah, just an update. FYI, thank God I didn't do this journal on Facebook